You showed up out of the ether. “Hi, how’s it going?” I didn’t know what to say that first time. And you’ve been floating in my mind ever since. Then you found me again. This time it was easier for both of us. The words flowed. Have we done this before? The familiarity is comforting. … More And then, you
Lately, I’ve been spending a lot of time in front of my laptop watching TV shows, specifically binge watching. I don’t have a TV and haven’t had one for many, many years–I never got around to buying one when I moved out and then I didn’t miss it enough to get one later. The downside … More Some of my favourite things – TV shows
When I was younger I thought I’d have everything figured out by now. All the missing pieces would be found and placed into their rightful places; the picture would be complete. I would be complete. I never considered that I might still be working on the landscape now, still filling in the gaps. This morning … More And then, and then
I’m not afraid of you anymore. You use to terrify me. All my energy was spent avoiding you. Just to escape, I would distract myself with invented dramas and problems–simply to avoid facing you. I ran miles and miles until I was lost and exhausted, but there you’d be. I could never lose you. The … More Emotions
I live near a very scenic cemetery where two cherry trees live side by side. Each year at this time, if the weather is just right, we get treated to a gorgeous display of nature’s brilliance–two pink clouds of blossoms, just for a few days. It always happens so quickly. First comes the deep pink … More Cherry blossoms
Why didn’t anyone tell me how easy it is? I thought self-worth had to be chiseled out of sweat, accomplishments and approval. That it was only when the world said so, then I’d be worthy. For sure it was outside of my control. Only now I know it’s actually a choice. I choose how worthy … More Why didn’t anyone tell me?
It’s time for me to move on. We had our moment but it didn’t grow in to anything. Maybe we were both trying, maybe you let go first. Maybe I tried too hard, yet again. We will always have our moment. For me it will always be a moment of delight and surprise. You’ll probably … More Treasures
My heart is singing. My toes are dancing. The sun, the stars and the moon are all sparkling more than ever. I finally went to see the endontist today because I couldn’t ignore the pain in some of my teeth anymore. I’ve been putting this off and off until I finally couldn’t. I thought, no … More Hurrah, no root canals!!!!
I once dreamed that an acquaintance said to me over the phone, ‘You try too hard.’ This was years ago but it still echoes in my mind. I always try. Why wouldn’t I? Who would I be if I didn’t. I grew up in a family where our unspoken mantra was: Hard work, not cleanliness, … More Trying too hard
‘I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.’ – Frank Herbert How these words shook me the first time. … More I will face my fears